(EqG/FR) Just Once

prose: http://www.fimfiction.net/story/307540/118/fluttershy-wants-in-your-pants/just-once

>"It was a normal day at Canterlot High.
>I was quiet and in the back as usual.
>I wanted you to notice me.
>Maybe it would have been my shyness.
>Maybe you would have liked my green skirt or long pink hair.
>Or maybe you would have noticed my light blue eyes, peering at you from the back of the classroom.
>But I wanted to know what it was like to look deep into your eyes.
>Even if it was just once.

>I quietly followed you around the halls as you went from class to class, scurrying like a squirrel out of sight.
>I wanted to know so much about you.
>I wanted to hear your voice.
>But I was too scared to approach you.
>I kept fighting myself over and over.
>Go talk to him.
>No, don't do it.
>Fight your shyness, Fluttershy.
>I debated with myself over and over...
>In the end... I thought I would give up.
>I walked through the halls teary eyed... knowing you wouldn't notice me.
>I wasn't anything special to you.
>But, then I tripped in the halls and spilled my books all over the floor.
>That was the last straw for me...
>After beating myself up all day for not mustering up the courage to confront you, I just cried.
>I cried like a baby in the crowded high school halls.
>I didn't care who saw me.
>They still laugh at me for it.
>But none of it matters.
>Because, you stopped and helped me.
>You put your hand on my shoulders and smiled.
>Then... I got to look into your beautiful eyes.
>My chest felt tight, my stomach was filled with butterflies and my mind went blank.
>My stutter acted up and I didn't know what to say.
>But that's when you told me your name...
>Anon.
>Such a handsome name for a handsome young man.
>You helped me gather my books and thats when you remembered we were in the same math class.
>All I could do was smile, because you actually -did- notice me.
>I giggled and nodded.
>Or maybe I squeaked.
>I'm fuzzy on that detail.
>I get so shy around people sometimes...
>But after you left, and I got to see deep into your eyes, I had a new question.
>I wanted to know what it would have felt like for you to hold my hand.
>Even if it was just once.

>After the first day, I noticed nobody sat by you at lunch, so I sat by you instead of the girls.
>Rainbow teased me for having a boyfriend after a few days, and I denied it through blushed cheeks.
>Although. I knew what I wanted most.
>I wanted to be closer to you so badly.
>Nobody seemed to want to be your friend.
>I knew I could be there for you.
>I sat down by you and you smiled.
>I got to see deep into your eyes and feel that same rush again.
>All I could do is dorkily smile back.
>We talked and I probably giggled way too much.
>I was putty in your hands.
>Or... at least... I wanted to be in your hands.
>I... may have lied and said I was doing bad at math.
>But you offered to help tutor me after school.
>At your house!
>I blushed so hard... but I interrupted you to say yes.
>That is... if you wanted to.
>And you did.
>So I met you outside the front of school.
>We walked to your house and you talked about the music you liked and I talked about animals.
>I talked about animals a lot.
>Probably a little too much.
>But you just smiled... and said it was cute.
>You called me cute.
>So I bumped my hand against yours...
>And you grabbed it.
>The rush filled me again when you grabbed it.
>I blushed and looked away, but squeezed you hand.
>But... then I had a new question.
>I wanted to know what it was like to be held in your arms.
>Even if it was just once.

>When we got to your house, your parents weren't home.
>We went up to your room, and we sat on the floor.
>I had never been in a boy's room before.
>It was so...
>Normal.
>There were band posters on the wall... A laptop computer...
>It was exactly what Rainbow's would look like.
>But less blue.
>And rainbows.
>You grabbed your bag and sat on the floor.
>I sat on the floor too, but sat on my side, so my skirt wasn't open.
>I was just so nervous to be in your room.
>You got out your book and opened to today's homework and began teaching me the lesson I already knew.
>I asked you to repeat certain parts just because I liked the way you said it.
>Your parents got home... and your Dad came up to say hi.
>When he got to the door, he was just quiet.
>You nervously introduced me to him and I could barely look him in the eye.
>I was so embarrassed and nervous...
>I shouldn't have been though...
>Your Dad just smiled and gave you a thumbs up.
>He mentioned he would tell your Mother to make dinner for an extra.
>My voice went dry.
>I wanted to say no... but it was already done.
>I was staying for dinner.
>We began to work on the problems together.
>I already had them solved in my head.
>Having a friend like Twilight help you through classes pays off over time.
>But after I messed it up enough, you sat directly next to me and help me walk through the problem step by step.
>Feeling you so close to me gave me goosebumps.
>I smiled so wide, feeling your hand on mine.
>Once I did one of the harder problems, I faked some pride and whispered 'Yay! I did it!'
>You looked at me with such pride.
>And I looked deep into your eyes and felt that rush.
>I felt your hand on top of mine and my body went completely numb.
>I slowly leaned into you.
>You slowly leaned into me.
>Then your parents called for dinner.
>The moment was shattered.
>I cursed under my breath.
>Rarity would have been appalled.
>At least, you didn't hear me.
>We went downstairs and we had dinner with your parents.
>Your family told me all about where you used to live, which made me feel much more comfortable.
>If I had to say too much about myself... I probably would have died in the chair I sat in.
>I hate being the center of attention.
>But... they asked if I was your girlfriend.
>You blushed and looked away, muttering a few words.
>I answered yes.
>You looked up at me in shock and I simply smiled back at you.
>But your parents were very, very nice... and let us go back to your room after dinner.
>You asked if I meant what I said.
>And I said yes.
>That's when it happened.
>You wrapped your arms around me.
>It was like someone injected me with some sort of high-intensity drug.
>The room felt like it was spinning.
>Time felt like it stopped.
>Nothing else mattered.
>I felt your soft heartbeat from your chest.
>I breathed in your delicate scent.
>I feel your gaze upon me.
>I leaned in closer to you...
>You leaned in closer to me.
>Then I tasted your lips.
>Your morphine lips.
>I tasted your kiss... and there was one thing that I knew.
>This wasn't something I could live with just once.
>In that moment, I never thought anything could happen to ruin what we had.
>Everything was special.
>Everything was amazing.
>I had you all to myself.

>Then -SHE- ruined everything.

>That she-devil, Sunset, came and stole you away from me.
>It's HER fault.
>I cried for days when you told me you didn't want to be a couple anymore.
>Days. Anon.
>Then, the Fall Formal was announced.
>I just... I just knew you would be going with... -her-.
>My friends told me I shouldn't go.
>That it would just hurt me more.
>But I couldn't.
>I had to go.
>There was one more question.
>One last thing I needed to know.
>Even if it was just once.
>So here we are Anon... You may be asleep right now... but the pill will wear off in a little bit.
>I wonder what you're dreaming about.
>Are you dreaming of me?
>I hope so...
>Becuase you are in every single one of mine...
>Except, this time, you won't run away.
>And I won't wake up.
>I hope these ropes are strong enough to hold you.
>This janitor's closet is on the far end of the school, so nobody will bother us...
>Not even -her-

>So tonight... I get my answer to my final question.
>I want to know what it's like to feel you inside of me.
>Even if it's just once."